Bath Time...

Mommy giving Lily a bath for the first time...I loved it!!!

All clean and dressed up...

I am at the hospital and couldn't wait to tell you about my wonderful evening with Lily tonight. I came to see her in time to nurse her for her 6pm feeding and gave her a bottle to finish up. She did really well with both. I then got to give her a bath for the first time! It was sooo much fun! It gave me such joy and happiness, I can't even describe it. I felt so motherly. She has been putting on quite a show. Lifting her head and figuring out how to pull the nasal cannula out of her nose. She was cracking me up, moving her head from side to side and pushing up with her feet. She did great with her bath, not crying at all and her oxygen requirements were as low as they could go during the whole bath. I was able to pick out her outfit and dress her too. I of course picked out a cute dress with a matching hat!! Tonight she weighed 4lb. 15.3oz.!!! So close to 5lbs.

Thank you all for praying specifically for her bottle feedings and blood pressure. While she did awesome taking her bottles for both Greg and I, her blood pressure continues to creep on up. I am trying really hard to not stress about this. As her doctor says Lily is not showing any other clinical signs that would correlate with a high BP, but as a mom I just want to know why and know that it is not causing any long term problems. Pray that we might get answers and that it would begin to decrease.

Today we had a sermon about what captivates you. Talking about what is true worship and why we worship God. But what stuck out to me was talking about what satisfies us or what we try to do to satisfy us. And the end result is that nothing we do can truly satisfy us other than our relationship with God. I realized that I am trying to get satisfied with Lily taking her bottles, with Lily progressing, that each day she has a good day, I think that I am satisfied. But in reality I keep going back to the same feelings, the same emptiness, fear, anxiety, because as wonderful as her progress is, it is only temporary and I can only truly be satisfied by God's amazing grace, hope, peace and joy. So, as Greg and I talked about how far Lily has come, we decided to look at her progression in a different light. To take each little achievement and be thankful and to remember what all God has done for her and for us, and pray believing without a doubt that He will complete this good work He started in Lily and that she will come home on His timing not mine.

Please continue to pray for her to do well with her bottle feedings, that her oxygen requirements would decrease, that her blood pressure would go down, and that we would take advantage of all opportunities to give God the glory for all He has done for us.

Lily's Fit...

pulling her nasal cannula out...